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I got home yesterday. It was tricky – my knee wouldn’t bend into the front seat, but we managed to lower the seat back enough for me to go back, and then forward again. Then I discovered the g-force of right turns on the knee was very painful. Next time (Monday, when I go up [...]

A good life

It feels strange to be going home. I have got so into being in the present, living in the moment, looking at the clouds, the birds, focusing on eating and drinking, meditating and entertainment, and how I am mainly comfortable – that for it all to be changing into something else is puzzling. It is [...]

Basking in radiance

I can go home tomorrow. I still can’t sit up so that my knee bends down to the ground, I’ll still have to keep working on that. That’s the main problem with getting about – getting from lying to sitting to standing. And even getting around in the wheelchair – a bit precarious with a [...]

Body consciousness

Today I went outside again, and got lightly sprinkled with rain. I had my leg on a board, sticking out from a wheelchair. I’ve watched Little Miss Sunshine, which I saw last year and thoroughly enjoyed both times. I love the open-ness of its comments on life and society. All the characters are [...]

Chocolate temperature

The temperature in my hospital room is just right for chocolate. I don’t have to keep it cold. It is just soft and creamy and delicious. I’ve had a range of chocolate since being in here. It is one of the benefits, particularly as I am able to eat well at the moment. [...]

Sleep

Last night, I slept. How good was that? I didn’t even need to go to the toilet, first time in months. I didn’t need any extra painkillers. I did wake up a few times, and stretched my knee and went back to sleep.
It is still swollen like a balloon, my knee, but [...]

Ipod therapy or Dancing in the Dark

I made a new discovery last night – ipods. Of course, my kids have been connected to ipods for years – usually when I’m trying to discuss some serious and important topic with them, such as washing the dishes.
My main problem with ipods has been that I have small ear openings, and [...]

The high cost of living

I am 45 years old, and suffering from a very rare, very aggressive cancer. At the moment, I am in hospital, awaiting a second lot of surgery to repair bones that the cancer has eaten away since appearing in them last December. Not very long ago.
A week ago my upper leg broke [...]

Every day is a miracle

Peace and quiet and Herceptin
Today has been very quiet and peaceful. Hospitals are much more peaceful on the weekends. I asked about going outside for a while, but it is not recommended. Because there is just the slightest chance I could get some infection in my hip replacement wound from our teeming tropical [...]